Q Query #20: in pursuit of normality ?

Almost 3 months without blogging,  i was watching Sex & The City movie on Show movies, scratch that. make it OSN Movies ! (Damn it even the TV Moguls have created a committed relationship with eachother), after watching SATC i got inspired to write again.

The question what to write about, how get you readers back to my blog. what is so interesting, almost everything has been talked about a blog, if i talk about finding that perfect and how difficult it is to find it Cairo, then well i would have done the same thing a million other bloggers done.

So after much thought i decided to write about some of my experiences in the past couple of month, i guess in a way or another my experiences are the ones that make special.

but where do i start, one of my two bestest friends, has returned to Cairo,  and what a joy it is, i was worried before he arrive that he wont fit in perfectly, or get to socialize with the people, but to much my surprise, within less than a week, that cute bff has gotten into the Cairo so scene, that i was surprised he got to know more people than i do, oh when i ever i check out a new guy on Facebook, i find him already a "mutual" friend... hehe i am glad that happened and i am glad that he is back, i am glad that he is back because its easier for me that he is here, its easier to be able to call him or see him when i need someone to talk too... (yes i am selfish i am glad he is back, and i wish he never leaves again ... and bitch if you are reading this, then guess what!?!?! i have a GRAND plan to make you never leave!!!)

In a surprising turn of events, i am getting closer to a friend, that i never thought we would get close, but lately we have been getting closer (on a non dating non relationship level) and again i am glad about that ... he is a great guy... he has potential of bff material (how lame of me to even say that!!)

while on the straight scene well as perviously stated in my previous post i was set on a mission which was conquering the straight scene, getting known, not getting rejected at entry of bars (oh such superficial goals, yet achieved) but the realization i came across is how much is the straight scene is similar to the gay one, how cut throat it is, how much jealousy are among the different groups, how much there is love yet hatred towards each-other, how small the outgoing party scene is, how everyone knows everything about everyone (yes apparently i am out, and apparently gossip travel fast )

i have had interesting experiences, once at Tamarai,  a new girlfriend of mine, told me that she wants to take me to her house so that she and her friend could play dress up and put make up on me !!! EXCUSE ME... I AM GAY NOT A GIRL! a few guys in another club are afriad to talk to me, they think i might bight them! oh and a straight guy friend of mine who i thought was a friend, once told one of my girl friends, that he doesnt always feel comfortable around me! hmm i think because he was extremely metrosexual, that he was afraid to be thought that he is gay by association with me, funny enough that happened also a year back.

BUT its not all bad, one of the boyfriends of one my girlfriends is like a well amazing when it comes to dealing with me, he jokes around about it in a funny way, but i never felt that he is threatened by it. which makes me feel comfortable around him , and to the people who know me, when i am comfortable i am less aggressive and less out there.

there was this one time a guy who went to this friend of mine and said oh how can you stand hanging out with this guy (me), he is hitting on me he is flirting with me (which wasnt true) and the girl being like a gay boy trapped within girl, she bitch the hell out of him in a club, but what was interesting fast forward a month down the lane and i was hanging out with my friends at his house, and it was like it never happened, he was cool around it, i guess.

That feeling of normality is great to have, the feeling of going through life without feeling different, but yet it still empties going alone through it, (oh i am not getting all sappy and shit here)

because i am not doing it alone, granted i am single and all that, but i have my girls and the bff, they understand me inside out, i love it sometimes even when i try to mask myself like say stuff that hiding my feelings or what i think, they respond back oh Q we know you so well ... oh GIRLs i have also a grand plan for you not to leave !! because i cant have you also leave, well at least one of you staying with me!

okay this blog is becoming a relentless mind dump, and hmm as someone said Q you have to learn when to stop. so i will stop here

Q.