so what do i blog about what should this new post entry be about should it be about friends leaving should it be one a birthday party that was hmm interesting and amazing in its own right.. do i talk about how different two arab cities can be so much of each other and how it just reaffirms my non belief in NON PAN ARABISM .. or do i talk about plans to Europe Part 6 ... or do i talk about my interesting ring with an interesting inscription or is it the 19 year old boy ?
usually you would want me to talk about the boys because suprisingly SEX... SELLS ... so no i wont do that.. i wont put myself in that strata of the common
Today i would do something mmm a bit interesting i would be giving you an insight into me. who am i. and by who am i ... i dont mean my name... i mean WHO and WHAT makes me.. ME.
- Q = simple succesful guy
- Q = a hot guy
- Q = a party boy
- Q = a workholic
- Q = fashion loving whore (i mean simple and not to flambouyant things)
- Q = a complex guy (contridicting to point 1)
- Q = Gemini ( i thought you would have figured that out from 1 & 6)
- Q = MUSIC LOVER (house music mostly)
- Q = Travel Addict
- Q = A Cunt/Bastard
- Q = Exhibisitionist
- Q = Out of the closet (i think i forgot to paint the rainbow on my forehead because some people just dont realize it yet)
- Q = A Social Guy, one can never enough friends or acquitenances, people are one of the most important assests in the world
- Q = is in search of a spiritual balance and is finding it at the moment in ISLAM (dont be shocked)
- Q = Big Nerd when it comes to the IT industry
- Q = has a good knoweldge of different plan types and their seating patterns (A321, 320, 319, 330, 380, Boeing 747, 737, 787) yet he is not a cabin crew or never has been a cabin crew or dated a cabin crew
- Q = a guy who has lived in 6 different cities, so he has the experiance of picking himself up and making new friends where ever he goes
- Q = a politcally aware guy
is it something wrong with me.. is the Mirror i see myself in, is lying to me by telling me i am the most handsom, sexy, intelligent, worldly guy in Egypt... or are all the other guys fuckers... hmmm ? am i too picky
Lets be fair i have had my share of dates for a while, where i go on a coffee date or a drink date with a guy.. and however i dont usually end up clicking, always i can find something wrong with them
- K = compulsive liar, image oriented guy, who thinks just becuase he can go to a certain egyptian club that makes him COOL
- C = has a boyfriend in the states and dont live here
- VC = was 19 year old but had the brains of a 26 year old and has also done an internship before starting his uni, actually he was a good guy but i guess i wasnt ble to grab his attention so yes this was my fault(will explain later what i did wrong)
- M = the 19 year old i am seeing now but he is just 19 thats says it all but somehow he attracts me
- K-1 = a very interesting guy but again my fault, couldnt get him interested
- GV = a very interesting guy, but sort of dating a guy but even before he dated that guy i wasnt able to get him more interested in more than friends, not that i actually tried
- B = hmmm again my fault
- Guy from the Gym = damn i until now cant even master the courage to talk to him
Actually ever since my move back to Egypt ten months ago, i did learn how to tone it down a bit, but not alot i dont want to loose who i am .. and what makes me ... ME... its my sass!! my witt!! my attitude!!
oh well what to do ....
Personally i didnt believe i am made for Egypt, i didnt believe egypt can handle me... when i say that people might directly think to the worst.. that i am some sort of queeny flambouyant boy.. no i mean Egypt is not ready for my thought.. my brain.. my dreams .. my hopes ... my plans... but some how i have grown acoustmed to get use to live with Egypt and make the best of it while still keeping my idealogy and thoughts intact ... what thoughts are we talking about.. hmm thats another post(s) in itself... its called Q Theory (not to be confused with Queer Theory)
i keep asking myself am i going to be living here with another four years ? (thats when i become 30) am i going to do normal thing and runaway like others in search of a life where and i qoute a guy who i was with last night "where people wont point at you and look at you" becuase you are different a place where i dont have to act extra butch just to try to conceal the hint that i might be a HOMO ... or would i be in Egypt, would i find a guy who i would settle with and live a private life with him and stay in Egypt till hmm i get grey hair (never going to have salty hair!!)
basically today post is about nothing and everything .. its just me "rambling" to myself hence why i really couldnt think of a suitable title
Welcome to my world ,
Q
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My comment to this post is on my blog :))
ReplyDeleteCheers!
And about the title , you can call it "Ramblings of a 20 sthg guy" :P
ReplyDeletehaha nice one
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