Q Query #19: Conqured the Straight Scene - what next?

So since august, i set myself on the mission of conquering the straight scene ... and well i did, it wasnt easy but i did. i Successfully conquered it, even though i am out to the public and almost everyone one the scene knows who i am and the fact that i am being gay.. i think maybe they think its the fashion Trend to have the gay friend... you know like the gay puppy ... your group is cool if it has its own gay in it... well to make sure that we are in line about which straight scene have i conquered .. i am talking about the party scene, the Tamarai, Club 35, La Bodega, scene....

My mission wasnt easy, it wasnt smooth either, because i couldnt totally detach from the homo life, i am after all a homo, so i have my homo friends who i love very much, so at the beginning it might have been difficult to find a balance between two lives, but i finally did it... okay enough praise to myself ...

The question okay i have done this, i established myself a group of friends, actually two straight groups and one gay group, i am out.. THE QUESTION remains... WHAT NEXT ... ?

Meet a guy, fall in love, move in together, and have a baby ?YEA RIGHT... the gay guys who are like me who have their life oir lfie in they straight scene who are recently the guys i am attracted too... are too scared to approach me because i am out .. they think that  i will outst them.. the straight guys on the other hand are friendly ... the girls.. i am their puppy ... meet a guy in the gay scene .. well i have seen them all and either none of them attracted me ... or the ones who i am attracted too are not interested... so here i am stuck in a runt,  SINGLE... that term single is scary for me because i am approaching 27 soon and i have always been SINGLE, (the dates that are under a month dont count .. sa7) ...

so what do i do next... GO BACK in the closet to attract the guys i like ? ... to late for that .. i have been outed in cairo ever since 2004 .. tab eih tani.. get a guy from the gay scene, who doesnt mix in the straight scene ? but how would that fit my lifestyle... it would mean that i have to go and center myself around his life on the gay scene ? or do i take a guy and we be with eachother on both scene ...hmmm hahahah i am sure the girls would love two puppies more than one :)

oh well dont mind me .. i am just thinking out loud here with no specific purpose.. call it stupid rambling... maybe its the winter time... isnt this time of couples... true... all the straight people are getting BFs-GFs.. even the gay friends have now boyfriends (with the exception of my BFF) ... oh CHEERS to walking the streets of cairo alone, Cheers to my single bed.. Cheers to becoming a NUN